catching the breather

3 tests r finally down. tests really sap the energy out of u, dun they? 3 major tests in 5, 6 days is really no joke. no doubt i din do exceptionally well, but really mediocre works fine for me now. afterall i tried my best, n even cooped myself from civilisation for so long, i think i deserve a break now. berating myself is gonna be the last thing i need. gonna have a short good breather, before plunging into the next couple of midterms n stuff!

there're so many things i gotta settle now that i've got some time on my hands:

1) apply for jobs!!
-yea.. this really takes priority. at the rate i'm pushing it, i ain't gonna get a job by july.

2) grad trip planning
-top priority too! my lifelong ambition k. a fully self-planned, self-supported backpacking trip round the world. haha except that it's not gonna be round the world of cos. where got money. most likely aussie's gonna be our pick. *excited* money's still an issue too. but i'm sure things will work out fine with careful planning n determination. like i keep telling thong, yeah we're poor undergrads now, we're spending money on a trip before we even start earning. but we're gonna be working soon, let's just give ourselves this break after studying for 16 years! money can earn back. anyway, honestly, i really have no inkling on how to get started with the planning and all. from air tix to hostels to places to travel within oz, clueless. gonna try yha and hostelworld. me n thong went to the lib today and sat there for an hour plus reading aussie guidebooks! too bad the lib doesn't allow borrowing of those stuff... wth. i think it's kinda pointless to have an entire shelf of really good guides, but expect pple to sit in the library n plan their travel itinery there n then right? sheesh. well newaes we're still abit lost, but a little start is better than no start. i'm sure we'll be on our way soon... haha... somehow, somewhere. anyone with travel experiences, pls share?

3) backup all my files
-think the laptop's gettin old. may be gone anytime, so better backup the files, which r really just lots and lots of photos more than anything else. heh.

4) watch tv/movie
-yea this can actually constitute as one of my top plans.. well relaxation's always in the plan for life isn't it. gonna finish all the shows i recorded on my laptop so dutifully everyday, but which i never had the time to seriously sit down n watch. plus all those dvds thong's bro bought.

5) miscellaneous stuff like interview/resume workshops, dental visit, meet friends/family, attend wedding...

looks like i have a handful n i dunno when i can get started on the next test, which is really the most terrorising.. we're gonna be tested on the entire syllabus... 3 anatomy textbooks, 20 journals. i think i can't finish in a month. n me n thong seriously haven't touch a single reading for this module (not to mention haven't print)... despite us going to the lib (on n off) since the second week of the sem. so many readings n work that we can't even come to this. n today i just met a schoolmate who finished all these readings once. how to compete with students like this la..

kk i dun wanna think bout depressing things... cos i'm gonna see my mummy!!! like finally! after 2, 3 weeks?? we're meeting up on thurs. we talked on the phone just now n she was telling me she's been counting down to meeting me... cos she's been bored at home n she just misses us so. gosh i wanna cry. my mum's been so sweet to me... been calling me up when i'm alone in the library, asking whether i've food to eat, whether she can cook anything for me n bring them down to hall, whether i can meet her for a quick meal.. she's just so worried that i'm hungry or something. there was once a few days ago, sat i think, when she called n i told her i'm the only one in the lib, n she gasped.. u're all alone?? she was heartbroken so i told her someone came in too. told her i shld be home tmr if possible, n she immediately wanna cook stuff for me. it's really times like this that i feel, is it really worth it for the cap? like shutting myself from family n friends, pressuring myself n stressing up. i dun wanna miss out on life, just for this thing that is really not a measure of my happiness at the end of the day, i guess. or at least, i've decided not to let it be a measure of my happiness in life. so had a talk with her just now, n i think i'm not gonna go for it nemore... i dunno. still confused, but i think i know wat i want afterall. anyway, yeah... mummy's gal. love her to bits. i can't have a better mum in the world. yeah and this is the kinda thing that'll make one truly happy, isn't it?

thong n me went to have dinner n a movie just now at vivo. seems like whenever we finish any test or wat we'll just pop by to vivo for a break. dinner was great at this hongkong cafe, kimgary restaurant. slurpy baked rice n love their french toast the bestest. watched letters from iwo jima, n felt it's really good. u gotta watch it to know. well, if u're a war n history film kinda person. anyway that movie made me sad n think of alot of things n issues... which explains my really moody tone. saigo is my hero. he portrays exactly wat alot of young soldiers must be feeling. sick, tired of war n just dun really wanna be there, or be a soldier at all for that matter. just wanna be home.

Kuribayashi: You're a good soldier.
Saigo: No, I'm really just a baker.

really sums it up well. he's my hero cos he din follow the rest of his troop to take their own lives for honour, hara-kiri style. bombing up themselves individually in this case. he's so real. u can identify with him. he fears when he fears. he weeps when he weeps. he misses when he misses. he escapes, simply becos he's afraid. oh he's really not a good soldier, his general just said that cos he's a really good general. oh watever, this show is a must watch la.

it's amazing how much i really like to go on and on bout stuff when there're no tests n deadlines.... really love writing bout things n such.. i can go on forever.