hell week part 4

feeling kinda rotten of late… sigh.

i think i’ve been slacking way too much, and now i’m paying the price.

it doesn’t help that the exams are impending, and i’ve 3 more mid-terms (or are they still considered mid-terms?) to go still.

sunday (tmr) midnight: 30% essay
status: zilch touched

monday 10am: 20% entire syllabus test
status: 4 out of 12 chapters (took up all my time from tues till fri)

wed: 50% entire syllabus test
status: zilch touched

i’m screwed. i’ve been goin out so much for the past few weeks… basically after the last series of mid-terms i kinda thought i could slack and party forever, and proceeded to do just that. if i’d been consistent in my work i think i could still afford that… but thing is i’m never one who catches up with work and now i’m reading everything for the first time.. tough luck…

i dunno why but this sem i’m finding it pretty hard to breathe… i seem to be forever going out… friends, family, bf, relatives.. there’re just too many pple to catch up with… too many social activities.. it’s neverending. i seem to be forever busy with something.. planning grad trip, finding jobs (err actually not really… unless u consider clicking on the mcys website once in awhile and sending out 3 resumes to date.. i’m really rotting away when it comes to job hunting), going for interviews (actually only 1.. and i’ve yet to blog bout the v interesting experience.. rejected on the spot actually, but more on that later.. soon, soon!), too much shopping to do, too many things to blog bout, too many things i wanna do, rushing to and fro home, just so as to squeeze in some time with mum, all these while juggling the heavy workload in school…

there’re just too many things on my agenda. i think i’m trying to get the best out of life, trying to have some of everything. but arguably i think i’m living life much happier than last sem, when i still couldn’t let go of the cap thingy, and everything was just so stressful. i’m not sure if it’s the busy-ness that makes me forget everything.. but either way i think i’m happy now. Lest this post sounds like im feeling blue, i’m actually only blue to the extent that i feel i’m playing too much till i’m totally ignoring my schoolwork… nv been like this since jc days.. shite wat’s happening to me? haha. even mum noticed, and mum’s staying faraway.

Oh well, now we know the last sem shld nv be left for pulling up caps. haha.. no surprise.. it’s the big transition from school to the rest of life. so many preparations to do… so much emotional stuff boiling.. hehe. graduation blues. the kind where u have anticipation, yet trepidation at what’s to come.

anyway.. i’m really gonna settle down to do some serious studying for the next few weeks.. in fact exams r dawning in bout 2 plus weeks? once midterms are finally over I basically have only finger-countable days for studying exams. and after exams it’s gonna be a mad rush to move outta hall/prepare for the grad trip within 3 days (and i’m still considering midsummer night’s dream on the day after my exam…)! gonna be so up to my neck from now on… no social obligations for me. pls dun ask me out anymore till exams r over k.. dun be bad influences ya’ll. i’ll just turn down anyone. hee.. really la.. hope to get understanding on this. love ya guys (or babes, actually) still. we will catch up, i’ll be sure of that!

Ooh anyway, pls dun eat C*nadian 241 pizzas anymore (unless u’re using them as laxatives). i just had nothing short of an earth splattering diarrhoea within half an hour of downing that. i’m sure i can attribute it to the pizzas. hmphhh.