off to the land of oz!

wheee i'm flying off in a few hours time so thought i'd say bye before i go.

anyway just some thoughts bout the past few days. it's been totally hectic for me n thong for the past 3 days.. lotsa packing, unpacking, packing again, moving, buying and rushing everywhere!!

my room's a huge mess now, it looks like a bazaar or something. filled with all the crap i moved back from hall, plus all the stuff i'm gonna bring for the trip all strewn around. it's sooo messy la, took pics of it n i'm gonna blog bout it someday cos it's so unbelievable.

and no i'm not done with packing yet. :(

so sianz of doing it sia. so utterly many things to bring and wat's more it's cold there gotta bring all the warm clothes and stuff.. can't fit everything into a backpack!! headache sia.

i feel really bad that cos of all the rushing and busyness i've been so stressed up that i'd been mean to my loved ones. sighh. stuff like being impatient or snapping at them or saying mean things.. u know how it is that u dun really mean it but it's just at that moment when u're all stressed and hard up for time u get irritated and impatient.. esp to thong and mummy, sigh i feel so sorry. but they know how i'm like la.. hehe and i know they dun harbour ill feelings.

i'm just so glad that my family and relatives r all so happy and excited for me.. all the well wishes and stuff.. made me feel worse how i get so self-centred when i'm busy. like how grandma called last night while i was packing n i din feel like talking to her.. but i still did reluctantly.. and turns out that she just wanted to come over today and give me money for the trip.. and to send me off.. and wish me a happy trip and everything... i've never been close to her but i'm now so really touched by all that concern..

and how my cousin also wanted to talk to me last night and i just wanted to watch desperate housewives.. turned out i missed half an hour of the show but gained so much more.. all her nagging concern and how she went to shanghai and bought me a woollen top for aussie.. how could i so conveniently forget all these when i want free time for myself..

how mummy kept nagging outta concern but i just tried to shoo her off.. hehe.. but sometimes she worries too much la.. made me bring soooo many warm clothes now i can't fit anything else. heee. she wanted to send us off at the airport but i told her not to.. i'm just afraid she'll be tired to rush down from work.. and gotta go home alone from the airport after that.. long journey home.. but i thought bout it later and realised how disappointed she must be when i told her not to go.. so this morning i woke up to catch her before work and told her to send me off.. hehe..

sighh.. all these things.. u dun mean to be bad towards ur loved ones.. but it's just at those moments when things are said and done and u dun even realise it.. it's only at the end of the day when u lie in the bed and think back to reflect that u realise u've been wrong.. i felt so sad for who i've been these few days and i just want so much to improve myself and be a better person.. i feel that i have so much love from the pple in my life but yet sometimes i'm blind to that and take them for granted.. i treasure them and everything but i just dun wanna be so impatient and harsh to them when i'm stressed.. i really need to control myself. yeah big project to work on.

oh well why am i suddenly blogging about all these stuff.. my emotions have carried me too far.. guess it's the idea of leaving home and the country for so long.. making my family worried and happy for me at the same time.. i just wish i'm bringing everyone along but yet this is a different kind of trip. haha okies shan't think too much.

anyway so, i'll be away from the 8th to 28th may so pls dun call me up yea but sms if there's anything urgent! doubt there'll be?

okie..i'm flying off to the land of shopping, sunshine, beaches (except it's wintertime) and koala bears!! wish me a happy trip and buy lotsa cheap bikinis back!

tata guys. :)