i dun mean to sound depressed, but, it suddenly struck something in me when i realised that one by one, pple who liked me from the past/were once suitors are all getting attached, moving on with their lives happily.

and me, i'm still stuck at the same spot, i'm not moving on. i'm moving back and forth, definitely, but still swinging around the same zone.

i'm happy for them, definitely. i'm just not sure why i'm so stuck, when the whole world is moving on quickly, seemingly effortlessly.

i'm happy and carefree being single, i'm not saying i wanna get attached. but i just want to move on emotionally. i want to get rid of negative energy within me... i want to feel happy. i dun want to feel like there's a weight inside me, bogging me down, tying me back. i want to be, truly freee.. in every sense of the word.


i think i've made a decision.. i must move on. i must get rid of past shadows that haunt me day and night. i've no idea how to do it, but i think i must. even if it means i have to be hard hearted.. sigh.

now i feel stupid for feeling this way when 30 000 pple have just died in the earthquake and all the survivors have no idea how to carry on with life.

i just made myself feel worse.