gobbledegook

as i'm typing this, i'm drinking my canned soup (chicken with veggies). other than the fact that this is the only thing i eat with veggies inside and still reasonably like, this is also my dinner for tonight..

of cos i'm not having it as dinner cos i like it that much.. give me dim sum, bedok bak chor mee or chomp chomp food anytime la... but this is the next best thing i can have if i wanna coop myself up in my room and avoid having to eat with my family and not starve at the same time.

so my plan for this week of emo days is to do just that, stay in my room and have my dinners here. in fact i went to the supermarket and bought a few days' worth of soups, biscuits and what nots. i hope my supply can last. tmr's menu should be clam chowder soup.

this must sound really crazy and depressing. but it happens when you meet crazy family members as well. sometimes a love-hate relationship is the most torturous of all. you try so hard to love them, but get hurt time and again.

for now, i just want nothing to do with them. want nothing to do with their sudden senseless property investment, out of some whim. all their crazy business ventures which dun ever seem to work out anyway. all their investments in stocks or wateva. they make me hate investments and finances. and my personal issues, i dun ever want to share with her again.. it sucks when pple hurt you most at a time when they know u're struggling with something..

now that i've finished my soup, the worst thing is that a friend just called up to ask me out for dinner. brrr. what great timing. of cos i'd love to get out of this coop of a house.. but i've finished my soup :( was thinking earlier on to get friends accompany me for dinner, but decided to face this myself and just lock up in my room... afterall, i have ali, good good, pooh and dumbo. i know i'm really fixated on pillows and soft toys, but trust me when i say they're the most loyal and trustworthy comfort friends sometimes.

okie.. anyway, back to my heading. gobbledegook is a real word! just learnt it today at my concept paper writing course.

language characterized by circumlocution and jargon, usually hard to understand: the gobbledegook of government reports.

Synonyms - gibberish, doubletalk, bosh, mumbo jumbo.

hah.. sounds totally like my writing sometimes... think i need to kick it soon.. what with the advice given by my trainer that in the civil service, ur writing ability is correlated with ur rising thru the ranks...

wateva... i'm gonna read my novel, eat, slack, watch tv now... gonna lock my room to prevent anyone from coming in....