it's 5.45pm and i'm going out for dinner with my mum later but i'm already hungry beyond reason!! *rarrr* lunch was miserable today with only steamed fish and rice. i could eat a cow now.

june was a good break, with a generally nice trip to redang, albeit with some hiccups here and there and some unhappiness along the way. but no regrets going. finally went there with sheryl after so much talk and excitement both of us went thru since days from long ago. planning was rushed and flustered (and done by both of us as usual). june was a HOT time for trips like this so we were plain fortunate to have gone at all. i miss the swimming and riding waves with sheryl.

other updates...

i changed my hairstyle!! have straight hair with bangs now. my colleagues couldn't recognise me at first. like really couldn't recognise. my dear michy first thought i was an intern sitting at fiane's desk, and she bumped into me in the toilet and walked past. sheesh. received various comments, the funniest of all being "sailormoon". GAWD. and stupid junxiang (yes you!) couldn't recognize me at first and said i looked UGLY. sheesh. but i'm generally quite happy with my new hair. it's no longer as bone straight as the first few days and looks more natural now :)

on the work front, i'm gonna be burnt this july and august. one assignment deadline on 27 july, research presentation mid-august and another huge assignment deadline on 31 august. sobs and i've no idea how to do them. getting tougher and tougher.

and i'm rushing psych reports for my pupils now like no business. realised that i've completed my cases a tad toooo vigorously last semester, as i just spoke to fellow colleagues and realise that they don't pack so many cases in their school visits and hence they don't close their cases so soon. now i've 12 psych reports and 10 coming my way once i finish off the parents' feedback. my supervisor's breathing down my neck and all the schools are rushing me. i'm highly stressed. booo. some unhappiness encountered with my supervisor partly cos of this as well, making me feel rather blue over the past two weeks.

also in the midst of writing a proposal to propose some nationwide screening assessment process for dyslexia... and it's killing me seriously. damn tough to write and i'm stuck. so technical. have to report on all our research studies which were carried out over the past 2 years, stats (luckily got male colleague helping me), and the very technical stuff about literacy and language assessments. we're all just waiting for this proposal to finish up, so that we can hold a meeting with external parties. i'm seriously procrastinating this abit too long..... but i can't help it when i don't know how to write it. arghhhhh... and i really dunno whether this proposal will go through with the external party. really have alot of doubts about this assessment process... i'm not sure how ethical or even how valid this is..... but yet we are at the point of no return. and being at the bottom of the food chain, i can only advocate it even though i hardly believe in it. ironic?

okay enough about work!! feel super sianz especially on a sunday night... the monday is looming near and i really have nothing to look forward to in work anymore. very sad to say. all the paperwork and crazy workload is killing my motivation to help children... i must constantly keep myself on track. arghhh

anyway, i have two tickets to ballet under the stars for next sat. bought it under moe promotion and was super excited to go. was intending to go with him but things are going badly now... might sell the tix in the end. i really think it'd be a nice event. some things are just not fated.

ok i think my post is turning depressing again... gonna go have dinner soon. enjoy the rest of sunday evening :)