what's with men and egocentrism??

men and egocentrism go hand in hand, across the millenniums and over generations.

seriously, when will men ever evolve to think more about others and less about themselves?? they place their own needs and everything about themselves in the centre of their world, such that they expect all others around them to be looking thru world's lens with their eyes too.

i'm just so so saddened by what my mum told me today. it's about my brother again, and i just feel this deep sense of helplessness and rage. i feel so sad for my mum, having to shoulder all these issues and taking the blame.

apparently my brother is complaining (again) that he lacks freedom and space to do what he wants at home. he cited the example of me bathing when he needs to use the toilet, and that noise levels at home are high and he can't rest. i find it so ridiculous that i find myself at the brink of fury.

u mean now i'm not supposed to bathe when HE's at home because he may need to use the toilet anytime??? since when don't families wait for one another, or go to the other toilet when one is in use?? i swear i've never hogged the toilet before, and the max i take to bathe is 20mins. does he mean i've never waited for him to finish using the toilet?? he takes half an hour to shit, and i still have to bear with the smell after that for god's sake. have i ever complained about such a stupid detail?

noise levels. *breathes* I'M the one supposed to have issues with HIS noise levels, cos who the hell plays drums in the middle of the night at 2am, and I'M the one who bloody wakes up at 7am each morning, while he sleeps till late morning?? so what kind of noise level is he talking about? i'm seldom even home to make any noise to begin with. the loudest sound i make is probably typing on my keyboard furiously now??

his complaints before this were, for one, he accused me of not locking our main door and thus compromising the safety of his belongings. to which i've denied because i'm someone who won't forget such a thing. it was later found to be my parents and we've all tried to be more cautious after that since it's for the safety of everyone.

second, he claims that we take away his freedom at home by bringing guests home. to which we've IMMEDIATELY rectified by not bringing anymore guests home from last year on.

Oh, then he also complains when my house phone rings, because from HIS perspective, what's the point of people calling our house phone when we all have handphones? Again, we're all disturbing the majesty's rest at home by having the house phone ring.

then when i bought a cheapo dvd player home for my mum, he was upset and claims that it'll scratch his "genuine" dvds. and he was apparently so upset that my mum doesn't dare to use it at all. so now it's just sitting there.

my mum even offered to let him have the master bedroom so that he can have his own toilet.

seriously, why must the whole family make sacrifices and compromises just to please him?? and one complaint is just followed by another complaint from him. he made the whole family so upset by making these unreasonable accusations and demands.

and throughout all these, has there been any self-reflection on his part?? of how he could also have disrupted our functioning at home in some way, but we all try to tolerate with him too? it's ALL about HIM, HIM and HIM.

I can't take it anymore....

he's not the only male i know of who's so egocentric and inconsiderate. there's many many many out there. of course i'm not saying all men are like this. but at least, alot of the men whom i've met in my life are, and i hate it! they make my life super miserable.

anyway, i'd be glad if he moves out. he's one person whom i won't ever need to see again. i'm only worried about my parents especially my mum, as i know she'll be devastated and lonely.

i'm sad whenever i think about how he has never played a brotherly role in my life, and i've never known brotherly love before. he has made my life miserable from young by being such a negative and anti-social element in the family. several things he did made me feel inadequate during my growing up years and it took a long while before i walked out of his shadow and found myself. he has never played a son's role to my parents as well and i feel so sad for them.

i know i definitely don't need him in my life, but i'm just so saddened by everything and all the unhappiness caused.