left the office at 7.30pm and missed the stupid bus yet again. the only thing i had hanging in my head was, just let this wed be over soon, please please please.

so dreading the work review i'm gonna have with nastiest prata at 8.30am, followed by rushing to a school in tampines to conduct some workshop at 10.30am, of which i have to be assessed by my supervisor for my presentation skills and i have to write a 3000 word report on the whole process of the workshop to submit for an assignment due in 2 weeks, followed by rushing back to office for a dreadful meeting at 3pm with team leader to discuss my research study which is really gg haywire now!!

so, please, let this Wed be over sooooon.

at least my colleagues are bringing me to white rabbit for dinner on Wed. i've been waiting to go there my whole life.

nowadays sleep=6 hrs, work = 12 hrs, gastric=paramount, life satisfaction= close to 0

i dunno how long more i can have faith, trust, confidence in the whole thing. I'm always asked to tolerate, be patient, be understanding, whilst u can just do whatever u like?? where's the fairness... where's the effort and commitment in everything. i dunno, i'm just so super low mo now. i think there's still alot of unresolved issues within me and i dunno how long i can last. sometimes i feel like i'm a third party between u and ur friends. why do i feel this way? is something wrong? is something u're doing making me feel this way? am i the only one who need to reflect??

i just want to hide and retreat somewhere. away from work and everything i dread. currently yearning to go http://www.akaresorts.com and i'm drooling at it everyday. working hard towards going there, perhaps one day in june? but yet when i think about what lies ahead, it feels so bleak and i dunno whether i can get to go with anyone at all.

i miss my babies and playing with evan... he's oh so sweet and cute.