after much thought over the long weekend.. i've decided to change the way my life is.

there are certain things i used to be very hung up about. i have an idealistic picture of the way things should be, and how my weekends should look. but i wasn't happy because somehow these ideals and expectations were not met. and it probably didn't make the people around me happy.

i've decided that things would not be the same anymore, and the change starts within myself.

so from now on, i'm gonna find back my own life. i'm gonna learn how to let go, not be too dependent on any one person, and my expectations are gonna start low. with lesser hopes and expectations, come lesser disappointments and friction.

i'll no longer keep my weekends free for anyone.. i'll open them up and do whatever i need to, go out with anyone i want to, have more friends and family time, no more priorities =) i realise that keeping priorities make one feel very tired after awhile, because you'd expect similar reciprocations in return. it shouldn't be this way anymore.

i've decided to learn driving, go for lessons that i've always wanted to, such as yoga, photography, painting, third lang, etc. i'm dead serious this time.. no more procrastinating, i'll just do what i want this time.

in fact, i think i've already planned stuff for every single of my weekends starting from the coming one to 18 sept, either partially or fully, just over these 2 days. and i haven't signed up for any courses yet! and i actually feel happy and relieved most of all. i feel like i have a new lease of life, not tying myself down, not expecting much from anyone, and most importantly, not tying anyone else down.

looking forward to a few short trips over the next couple of weeks. =) quite excited about this change in my life and i hope it'll really make a difference for the better.