I haven't seen my parents this whole week... cos each day i leave home at 7am+ when mummy's still sleeping and dad's out jogging/marketing, and come home at 11, 12 at night when they've gone to bed. Feel a bit guilty, as if I'm treating the house like a hotel at times.

Increasingly these few months, I cease to see them for full weeks consecutively, since I'm seldom home on weekends too. We've stopped really having meals tog, save for occasions/festives. Sometimes I feel like i'm a terrible daughter.. and I don't know how to make up for it. =( And it's real ironic that I actually miss them right now, though they're sleeping in the next room, just behind the wall I'm facing.

I still wanna go for that family trip I've been thinking of.. but I don't know how to make it work and come true.

At times my mum will exclaim, daughters are never really yours, they'll become someone else's one day. And sometimes it feels a little sad... I never want to leave their side.

The rocky horror show was great... fun, sexy and hilarious. shall i add, real sexy with an oomph! been a long while since i've caught a play/musical and i miss these, really. still can rem corinne may's xmas concert fresh in my head, which was fantastic.. phantom of the opera from years ago, and the locally produced ones like dim sum dollies and beauty world.. all so long ago!!

Just went to catch a comedy thriller.. it turned out to be quite scary, so I came home a bit scared. Each night, the thing i dread doing most is to turn off the lights, esp those in the living room cos the windows are facing the vast, dark park... brr.

I'm dreading a lot of things right now.. dunno why but having a major emo episode all of a sudden and don't feel like turning in. another day of work tmr, then l4D at night with colleagues.

Jan is the month of decision makings.. and sometimes you feel like you're neither here nor there.