argh. i hate this situation i'm in.

this situation whereby i'm trying hard to focus on really immediate things at hand, such as preparing for the scary 2 hr unseen research-and-report-churning test in 9 hours' time, while trying to squeeze out other thoughts from my mind.

i'm now really trying to think, wat would be good for children? what do i want to do for them if i wanna protect them? i want my answers to come from my heart.

then other thoughts will come into my mind and irritate the hell outta me.

argh. i really just wanna concentrate on my mon-tues-wed marathon. i'm utterly not prepared, and in a very bad state of emotional readiness at that. i need all the quietness and peace of mind i can get.

but yet everyone from all directions are talking to me bout other issues. even now, past midnight, i'm still getting those smses and msns. i've been saying, i really need to concentrate on my interviews. really really need.

other issues, pls hang on. i'm bothered by them, yea, but i'm determined to push them out of sight for now. so please, help me on that. pple, really, leave me alone. if u know me well, i'm the kind who only want to be left alone before any tests/exams/interviews. if u wanna wish me luck, go ahead. but dun come talk to me bout other issues at this time when u know that's gonna put me down the most. i know everyone really cares, and i'm thankful for it, but this is just not the time. i really have this urge to perform well this time, get a career started. period. heck other things.

9 hours. freak. i dunno how to prepare for this type of test la.