zombie day

last night we had an adventure: me, ceci, kai and david drove to johore for supper at 2am.

reached home at 6am +, couldn't manage to fall asleep until 10am! noise factor: grasscutter at 7am, parents waking up + getting ready sounds.

i usually put my hp on silent when i sleep but nowadays been keeping it non-silent in case of job calls.

so at 12.30pm, my hp rang:

me (shit, potential employer call!!!): hello? (trying to sound as perky and professional as possible)

the other end... female voice: eh, still sleeping ah.. haha.. WAKE UP AND LOOK FOR JOB!

me: (registers yuan's voice) (sianzz.. not employer.. stupid yuan.. woke me up, haha)

yuan: eh the care cream how many should i buy?

lol diao.

total beauty sleep hours registered: 2.5 hrs. zombie day.

ok so the Care Pre-makeup Cream spree is open!!! interested parties please buy from here:
http://community.livejournal.com/_spreee/1246633.html#cutid1 (dunno how to buy ask me)

not advertising for it or anything, just recommending cos i'm nice and wanna share good stuff with u gals. wahaha. it's just this cream that u put on ur face before putting ur makeup, and it'll control ur facial oil production and makes ur skin feel really matte and silky for many hours. lol. sounds like a miracle? my mum n i love it. i dun promise u'll like it la, but so far there's been lotsa raves. it's up to u!

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pretty bad day for me. nothing bad happened but i think i'm feeling totally lost and troubled. i hate my current lifestyle.. feels like there's no motivation in anything, no aim no focus. i dunno where i'm headed, i dunno what i want.

lotsa things going thru my mind and heart. i think most impt of all i gotta sort out what i want in my heart? oh gosh as if that's easy at all...

and worst of all i feel utterly lost and lonely nowadays.. even though i've been going out with friends and stuff, i feel like i've lost 2 very significant pple in my life, who used to take up such a big portion of my time. it seems like a loss of thong (my constant companion and soulmate) to the army, a loss of mum to her work. all these sudden changes are taking a toll on me which i've no idea how to explain to anyone, let alone make them understand.

there's just this vacuum in me.. emptiness and loneliness. it's not the lack of companionship.. it's like a deeper form of loneliness.. an emotional loneliness. sigh. i wanna pour my heart out.


p/s: please scroll down n read my sydney post in case u missed it! hehe.