it's one of those blue days again. when the downpour started early morning n lasted mid-afternoon. i tired out and slept through the day.

at least after which i had my good fix of accessories shopping (this time, i bought a locket without restraint), good ol' timbre pizza, with buffalo wings, seafood and mojito, and 500 days of summer to top it off.

it's an untraditional love story (spoiler alert). offers a pretty good perspective, at least for me it came at the right time. it's one of those, "how to move on" movies. sometimes you dun need a reason. you know you just have to do it. no matter how much chemistry you have with someone, he or she may not end up to be the one, though you may feel it so strongly at a moment in time.

funny thing is how i can identify with both characters to a certain extent, but only because i've been in both shoes at different points in my life. with tom, it was especially when he said, "... the very things i believed in and hung on to turned out not to be true...". and in his context, i felt it so real. i was naive, like him, to think that someone really felt for me, and to think that whatever we've been through really meant something. with this comes great disappointment, when it turns out that u've just been giving more than it's worth.

having said that, i've also been on the other side of the field at a different point in my life. i had initially thought that summer totally screwed up tom's feelings. but i slowly came to realise that i felt this way because the movie was filmed from tom's perspective, thus allowing room for empathy towards tom and not summer. it was only at the end that i realised, even though tom was generally good to summer, she doesn't need a reason to leave him. she doesn't know why, and it doesn't bother her, she just felt like it and she just did it. when asked by tom how can she say that she doesn't feel like being somebody's gf but ended up becoming somebody's wife instead, she said something like "I don't know.... you just didn't give me that feeling". basically, tom didn't make her feel like being his gf, but someone else made her feel like being that person's wife. Sometimes, it's just about feeling the right way with the right person, and u dun have to give any reasons or explanations for that. Tom came to realization too, and managed to move on.

how powerful it is to sway opinions by portraying things from one person's perspective. i've really come to realise this the hard way. but i also understand how this is a natural effect in itself. albeit, a very dangerous and poisonous one at times. how hearts can be shattered. torn raw. ultimately, i believe that someone who truly loves you would never portray things from just his perspective, and allow others to form a judgement of you out of context.

i've known my answer, it's always been there in my heart. with that, i'd go to bed tonight with a smile on my face.

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I don't want to talk about it... how you broke my heart....