i had a vivid dream last night. ok, i had a vivid nightmare last night.

this time, i was being hunted down by wild animals, instead of him. to be exact, a huge black bear, a polar bear, a tiger and a lion.

they were in a group. they were in my house, although my house in the dream doesn't look like my real house. i dreamt that i had to climb out of my window, quietly, and step on all the window ledges and tiles, trying to find a neighbour's house i can enter, desperate for an opening somewhere.

they were following me. sniffing me out. i had to keep escaping, finding new openings. anywhere that would take me.

then i was in a house. someone's house. and i had to knock wooden planks all over the windows and doors, so that the predators can't enter.

at one point, the black bear found me and almost got me. the lion pranced around me. i was still on the run. almost defeated, but haven't given up.

the thing about my dreams is, i almost always dun have an ending.

and i'm never alone. i'm always with someone, but someone whom i don't know. but the feeling is always strong, as if i've known him forever.

i think in a way, my dreams always reflect my mental state. i'm always being haunted or chased, and i'm always running to find freedom. i can't get a break, even when i'm asleep.

it's so draining sometimes. i wonder when i can get a brief respite.

for our branch workplan, we are asked to write compliments for each other.

yesterday i chanced upon a few of mine. someone actually said, "gentle but tough". i wonder who it is. i hope i'm tough. i need so.

another comment, "you're always making us laugh". i've never thought of myself that way. but i'm indeed happy in the presence of my friends and colleagues. i think i'm always saying nonsense. nowadays whatever i say can throw michy into spasms of giggles. i dunno how i'm funny!

and the very naughty ones said, "you're more than we can ever imagine. hint: night safari" hahaha. gosh. my reputation's gone down the drain!

dunno how i'm gonna function at the workplan for the next two days when they're gonna serve my raisins. gosh. think i'll just burst out laughing again and this time, my bosses are gonna think i'm crazy and throw me out. then maybe i can go home.