i dun wanna turn 25 part 3

tuesday saw myself celebrating with dear colleagues at modesto's at vivo, one of my fav places. i really think the restaurants lined up along vivo are all very nice... with a good view of the harbour.

it was pretty sweet of them to plan this for me, despite this being such a horrendous week for all of us due to the CCET portfolio due on monday. i really thought everyone would bury themselves mugging! super touched that they all sacrificed their time for a nice long dinner with me.

and they bought me such lovely stuff.... a little bunch of roses from them which means "I love you" in Michy's own words, a sweet hardcover diary full of hearts on them, five solid bars of 'happiness' from chocolate research facility, a very thoughtful bday card filled up by so many many names, and a superb tiramisu cake decorated with strawberries from modesto's itself.

touched to no end. and the night ended off with michy's sms: We love you. And we want nothing but happiness for you.

awwwww. almost cried. gonna store it in my heart forever.

i'm feeling super blessed and loved in my own little way... life's been good to me now and i want it to remain so. appreciate all the little angels who've shown me sooo much over the past few months.

saturday is here!! gonna celebrate my bday with my girlfriends later... excited excited. michy said my bday celebration is like weeks long... and i should marry an indian cos they celebrate weddings like one month long... hehe.

meanwhile, gonna mug on my portfolio and meet my bestie soon. been staying back in the office till 11ish....feel so miserable and tired. it's making me look super haggard and i'm age-ing like nobody's business.

maybe turning 25 makes u age twice the normal rate. arghhhh

i dun wanna turn 25 part 2

my birthday is over and i feel a deep sense of relief.

don't get me wrong.. i mean, all the celebration building up to the day itself was great and i felt really blessed and happy. but i wasn't looking forward to the actual day at all. maybe because i had been looking forward to something else which i know isn't going to happen anymore, maybe because i just hate my birthdays in general because they always fall on stupid days, maybe because i dun wanna hit a quarter of a century old, maybe because these two weeks have just been crazy at work and i can't really enjoy my bday at all as it's right smack in the middle of chaos and it's on a monday to top it off.

my birthday started off on a bad note last night from the very second it turned midnight, which left me being unable to sleep n have any restful sleep at all.

however, i'm really thankful that i didn't have to go into office afterall but i wasn't actually skiving as i had to stay home to rush my assignment deadline. wish i can dun touch work for just a day but i know i have to rush it today and tmr or else i'd be burnt this weekend.

it was a boring and torturous day. spent the afternoon typing assignment (i'm only at page 8 out of 50 though...) and napping abit. i had initially planned to have a quiet day alone. colleagues had wanted to celebrate for me today but i told them i can't make it, so we've settled for tmr. but i became really bored crazy and bugged my mum to have dinner with me at novena... had v nice curry at curry favour. then i begged thong to have desserts with me at night cos i just can't bear the thought of being alone at night. and i know he's the only person i can actually tell i'm super bored on my bday..

turns out that plans to be alone on your birthday can't really work out afterall.

anyway, i had a super great weekend! caught up with thong on sat. went to prive for superb traditional breakfast with a nice view of yatchs and my dream houses by the marina. then we went to sentosa and behaved like tourists for a day. visited underwater world, dolphin lagoon, fish spa and my fav luge! gosh it's been 20 years since i stepped into underwater world. so many fond memories... i've always liked going to sentosa. but i'm pretty sad to see the IR developments there. at night we had dinner and drinks at serenity, this spanish restaurant and lounge at vivocity. it was very nice and it's facing the harbour... there was a band playing and though the band is made up of old uncles, they played n sang v well.. and they sang the kinda sappy oldies that i like. i requested for lady in red! they also sang stuff like collin raye and eagles.

sunday was a day with my family and relatives! went for a seafood buffet with my family... ate and ate and ate. then i met my relatives for the afternoon. my cousin gave me a manicure and pedicure treat!! and to top it off, she paid for a mani + pedi package that we're both sharing! my feet felt totally pampered and treated la.. they are now so soft and smooth after the fish spa and pedi... we felt the service at the neighbourhood mani shop was pretty good and their quality is fantastic.. and it's rather cheap somemore! definitely will go there regularly now. went over to my house to cut the cake.. mummy bought a durian cake from angie's and it's still great as usual! at night we went to have dinner at a tze char stall in sin ming... i love the milky fish thingy there.

okiee that's all for my bday so far! still have 2 more celebrations coming up... :)

really appreciate all the well wishes i've received today. made me feel pretty loved! feel so bad that for most of the pple who wished me, i wouldn't have wished them as most likely i wouldn't keep track of their birthdays or would have forgotten the dates.. i'm pretty bad at remembering n keeping track of birthdays. think i must really put in more effort in remembering pple's special day.

okiee i must really work hard tmr.... i aim for 20 pages!!

i'm in a dilemma now..

i have flu, sore throat, cough and on-off fever, which really sounds like h1n1 or it could just be a common flu.

i dun feel too terrible, the symptoms are all quite mild for now. at least i feel much better at this moment than this afternoon when i felt like i had a high fever and drowsiness during my school visit.

i know i've been wishing to be down with h1n1 so that i can take 5 day mc. hehee. but i heard healthy pple died from it so i dun really wanna get it anymore.

furthermore, i can't afford to take mc now. tmr i have a presentation at nie.. so take mc also no use. but should i be so socially irresponsible? but yet i'm trying to be responsible at work. arghhh such a dilemma. which is more important???

besides, i'm meeting pple for dinners this whole week. i dun wanna fall sick!! why must i fall sick now. i haven't been sick for one entire year!

shit. somebody just told me that on-off fever might indicate dengue fever. pls dun scare me!!!!!! i've been bitten by mosquitoes EVERYDAY for the past one week! even woke up in the middle of the night to smack them. i get at least 5 bites a day and i stay next to bishan park - high incidence of aedes.

pls tell me it's not true!!

i dun wanna turn 25 part 1

was supposed to go out shopping but stayed at home cos i'm kinda sick. anw i'm really not keen on shopping nowadays. i've overspent and burnt my pocket.

spent the whole day doing something very constructive - took a long afternoon nap. a very good rest indeed. much needed. lotsa pple commented that my eyebags are terrible, and that much i agree. i think i've been going out abit toooo much.

yesterday was a very well spent day with my friends at Old School. was treated to a romantic dinner (the setting was romantic, not the pple) at Chalk (awful carbonara though..) whereby they surprised lm and me with a lil' lemon-kaya cake from rive gauche. i still dunno how is it lemon, cos it certainly looked and tasted more like a cranberry kaya cake. nice nonetheless.

we hopped next door to timbre. first visit to this newest branch and the place is really nice. i'd think nicest of the three. except that the crowd was toooo young. there was some family function gg on for some richass kid - too crowded, too noisy, too young.

nonetheless we had a rather crazy night at timbre cos of my crazed fun-loving friends! Pam, a filipino singer who's quite on the ball n had a loud n rich voice, and guitarist Fatt (whom we thought was a girl at first) were up. sms dedication was going on and lm sabo-ed Lissie and her new bf Song. he wished them happy "one-week anniversary" and Pam made them stand up and kiss! jin captured a very sweet shot of them when their lips almost touched! gotta wait for him to upload on fb. they actually kissed for a good 3 secs. heh. so happy for the girl! Pam kept calling Lisi as "LeeShee" and she repeated this at least 10 times which made me giggle like mad. later we found out it's because stupid lm typed "Lishi" in his sms. haha.

it got a little wilder when we sabo-ed jin to go on stage to sing. he was going "oh SHIT" when he heard his name. i didn't expect him to be so onz and he actually went up the stage!! he sang Lucky together with Pam. wooot. damn proud of him la. anw he performs and should be used to it la.

haha i think my friends are really quite onz and it made my night :) i wouldn't dare do all these for nuts. they already had the sms typed out with my name and i begged them not to sabo me!

so, this is my happy start of a birthday thingy, and i'm really not looking forward to the dreadful day itself whereby i'll be busy busy at work. just looking forward to catching up with (worthy)friends and family over the next two weeks.

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there are some things which cannot be tolerated, accepted and forgiven. at this point, i'd really just like to forget and move on with my own little life, perhaps heal my wound by any chance. and i hope to be given this basic space and right.

was lunching with michy yesterday (shaker fries!!) and we talked about things we wanna do. here's my list:

1) learn driving with mich (must find a private instructor who can pick us up from home)
2) yoga classes (bought my yoga pants last year but procrastinate until now)
3) oil painting
4) sketching
5) photography (dessy said i shld seriously pick it up cos i've the angle but need to learn the camera functions. think alana said this to me several yrs ago too)

sigh. of dreams and possibilities.

heard that there are shooting stars tonight. but i glanced up the sky and it's red and threatening to rain. boo.

i love the long weekend. simply can't imagine working tmr if this is any other weekend, but thankfully it's not. thank goodness for rare weeks like this.

just came back from catching the movie Up in 3D, and it's just super cute. it's the first time i caught a 3D movie locally which u have to wear 3D glasses!! the first time i tried this was actually in Movie World in aussie, and it was 4D for Shrek, thus it was even clearer n nicer. but it was also pretty cool to do this in a local theatre. the animation for this movie is pretty good. rather breathtaking. good lesson was also learnt from the story. i think in a way, the character Carl has taught me how to let go of the balloons in my hands.

i had a very fruitful weekend in terms of occupying my time n getting myself to move on. friday i had the bestie's company for the night. went over to her house and did scrapbooking while her sweet bf waited for us till almost 3am and sent me home.

sat was shopping with my mummy! we kinda went gaga at ion. shopped from 2 - 9pm! and we bought soooo many stuff. we bought 5 pairs of shoes!! and we went to folli follie (my fav accessories shop!) without the intention of getting anything, but the moment our eyes set upon this watch, we just knew we had to get it. within 5 mins, we made the crazy decision to buy it! decided to share the watch since both of us like it so much and it fits the both of us nicely too. plus, there was a 10% sale!! too bad we didn't have the isetan card or there'd be further discount. it's still a pinch but i think it's totally worth it!

i just love it sooo much! a very quaint and exquisite little watch with little jewels all around it! it's pearl and gold in colour. think it's the first time i got myself a watch (not counting in the cheap zipia ones). it's pretty understated in this photo... but it's much nicer and bling bling in real! it comes in black too (with a pink gold base), also very nice. but we decided this colour is the nicest. somehow it looks nicer on my mummy... i love bling blings :)

sat night was spent at pump room with my friends.. there was actually some ndp countdown party going on at the canary area. i really dig the live band at pump room.. but i totally hate the intermissions whereby the music gets terrible n i just can't wait for the band again. i got kinda high again after the very potent long island tea there, but too bad my friends weren't high at all and they didn't like the place very much.. so i didn't really feel like i could let my hair down n just party. i was dying for the dance floor but my friends are more into drinking. we went to winebar after that. but it's pretty interesting to hang out with this bunch of very artsy fartsy pple.. the gals are all from the fashion industry. one of the gals and her bf are into photography, and they brought along their lomo cam and dslr, so lotsa good shots were taken.

today was a quiet day.. a very nice friend brought me to dinner at azabu sabo followed by the movie. dunno whether i've said this but i like long quiet dinners. that's when u can really sit and just talk. had a super long dinner with sheryl on thurs at cedele as well and we chatted for so long. was pretty nice catching up with her. it's really nice to be single and just catch up with anyone u'd like to, not minding the time and handphone, n just do whatever u want. i've not felt so relaxed in a long while.. maybe it's a good thing. dun think i'd ever be ready for another rship. too much commitment over the past few years has made me very commitment phobic at the moment and kinda jaded and tired. it's really time to rest.

tmr's a brand new day (and last day of the hols..sobs) and i'm catching up with captain lim. i'm gonna bug him to go sunset grill for dinner cos i just miss the spicy wings there sooooo much. i'm actually kinda hungry now... so super not used to going without supper... gonna dig out some food from my kitchen.

beautiful quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is to love, and be loved in return.