in a rainy mood

i had 6 dreams last night.

all different, all vivid.

gosh, how is that possible?! haha.. it must be cos i slept for too long? 4am -2pm. previous night i slept from 6am-6pm! and had a couple of dreams too. actually there's not a night i do not dream of something. hmmz. well u can't blame me for sleeping so much. the rainy nights made slumber such a luxurious affair.

5 days to graduation. gosh... as overused as it is, how time flies. and everything is happening so quickly, there's no time to think amidst the exams.

we're going thru all the lasts in school and hall. and trying to remember them all.

tonight was the last walk to fongseng. erm it's not the food there, really. it's more of the peaceful, quiet night walk down that street that i love so much. feels like small town life.

studying is bad. i'm at the second topic only. but right now, i just can't wait for all the papers to be over, without having the other stuff end too, that is. if u even get what i mean.

thong's bday photos (finally)

okie before i go bury myself in books and journals for the next few days... here's the pics from thong bday's several celebs!! yay! finally uploaded them all.

went to this jap restaurant at vivo with my mummy, and she treated us to dinner as a form of treat for thong.. yummmy!

sushi starter.. not bad

love my yummy cold green tea soba and tempura.. good stuff.

see the quail egg at the corner? u're supposed to crack it (raw) into the cold soba sauce. interesting! but i din dare to.. hate anything raw..

thong's set comes with his fav sashimi.. and some fried salmon and tempura..

okie next up is the bbq that his beloved famous five gang organised for him.. hehe it was quite a success since everyone and their wags turned up.. and the food and company was good!

see those lil' chicken wings on the grill?? those are soooo good! mean lil' wings they make. wish i could have a dozen more though. hehehhe.

this is xinloo, my fellow wag! makes a great chit chat companion whenever we go for these outings.

twas' a night of good ol' marshmallow grilling... slurps. xinloo kept persisting to grill hers until they're crispy golden on the outside.. but they were like almost falling off by the time she did that! haha.

thong and his famous five + 1. friends of almost 20 years!! who can have that?? seriously envy them sometimes. haha. i think he had a great night cos they're like his bestest buddies and they seldom have such big bday celebs. the cake's lopsided though. due to some mishandling. hahah. went for some pool and wine (his buddy treated us to 2 bottles!) at a pool bar after that.

next up is celebration with the moos! jin's bday is one day b4 thong's so we had a combined celeb as usual.

these candles are sooo adorable aren't they? hehe i heart. it looks like they're part of the cake.. like candies or something and u can eat em' up.

doesn't the cake look fantabulous? hee. thanks lisssie for the nice cake and candles.

oops jin blinked in this photo.. dun have a better one.. haha okok maybe he's just making a very long wish (while thong's busy posing for the cam). hehehe.

yummy!

and next is my very own bday cake for thong. hahaha. the surprise u read about a few posts ago?? guess wat cake i bought...

pandan cake!! erm, dun ask me why the flavour. it's thong's fav. weird flavour for a fav. hehe. anyway turns out he doesn't like it that much and the leftovers are still in the fridge now. :/

then we went for a simple dinner at chijmes' hogs breath cafe for a casual laid back dining experience.. we've been there once and we quite liked the ambience and good steaks..

cute wallpaper..

love the "artistic" pics i took of thong.. hahaha. the lighting works wonders la.

see how gleeful he is when he sees fooood...

love their steaks..

the complimentary bday mudpie they served us.. hee sorry i looked a tad too excited?

and finally.. the present i bought for him from pedro. we went to choose after dinner.. hahaha.

okie.. off to study!

still screwed!

pheww history and systems is overrr. but i pretty much screwed it up. hehehe.

expected a general qn for the compulsory qn, which was wat prof told us to expect. but it turned out sooo specific and i was stumped.

Qn: "I know of no introductory textbook that fails to include the term 'behaviour' in its definition of psychology" (Goodwin, 2004). How has this come about, and what does it imply about the legacy of Watson's behaviourist manifesto?

know what, this is an easy qn. but the problem is, i totally left out Watson while doing revision yesterday, and needless to say i've no idea what is in his behaviourist manifesto (name me a yr4 who doesn't know John Watson's behaviourist manifesto). how to write an essay like that... so it was bull-and-crap session. enough said.

for the second section, chose the easiest qn to do:

Qn: "Nothing in biology makes sense except in the light of evolution" (Dobzhansky, 1975). In what ways might historical considerations justify saying this of psychology as well?

okie fine not easy too. i said easiest, which means relative to the rest. at least, i took an evo course last yr. sighhh.

i'm soo screwed. and thing is, i dun think other pple are as screwed, becos the qns are really much more reasonable than expected, but the problem lies with me, i.e din study enough and din study the right topic, basically. shite. still can't get over the fact i left out behaviourism, the mama of psychology.

lol. hahaha.

but now i've other serious things to think about. such as the remaining killer papers. next up is wed's human psychophysiology. can't tell u how horrible the mod is.

seriously phobic of studying all the heart, blood pressure, eyes (yeaa even eyes are related to psych), skin plus wateva i can't rem. all the anatomy, physiological systems and functions, measurements and equipments, and how all these relate to psychology such as hostility, cynicism, type A, depression, blah blah blah. i can't imagine the torture of going thru all those psycho-medical journals once again. i hate journals!!!! plus 3 very med textbooks. oh gosh. *breathe and count to 10*

oh well i have 4 days to cover all these. 4 days is the highest no. of days i'm devoting to one mod, so hurray! but then again, i've not touched 3/4 of the stuff for this module. crap. no way i can speed read any psycho-med-physiological thingy. so sssscrewed.

silent scream

i'm sooo screwed this exam. no kidding. arghhh never have i been so ill prepared before. never. since yr1 at least.

and it doesn't help that my current studying schedule is so screwed, thanks to my stupid lifestyle. my typical day for now:

wake up at 1 or 2pm.
cook lunch, eat and slack till 4 or 5pm.
go lib and study abit till 6pm.
dinner and slack/surf online till 9pm.
lib till bout 10 or 11pm.
bathe.
study till 1am.
supper time!
study a lil from 2am till 4am.
sleep.

and lotsa breaks in between that are not mentioned as well. haha pretty screwed up lifestyle. how can anyone start studying in the evening and end off near dawn? and this coming from someone whose 4 papers are all 9am. last night i slept at 5+am. and woke up at 8am for my paper. felt so woozy during the exam.

how how how. i know nuts bout my modules. seriously. i'm reading alot of things for the first time, and i dun have the time to finish up or even to revise thru again. it wasn't like this in the past... and this time, i really dun understand alot of the material i'm studying.

i'm particularly worried bout this fri's paper, history and systems of psychology, which is sooo tough la. just take a look at some past yr qns:

Qn. If Watson wrote a paper now--called "behaviourism as the psychologist views it"--what do you think he would say? --> compulsory qn

Qn. "It is my conviction that a part of modern living is to face the paradox that, viewed from one perspective, man is a complex machine... on the other hand, in another dimension of his existence, man is subjectively free; his personal choice and responsibility account for his own life." (Carl Rogers, 1963). Discuss the paradox and how it might be resolved. --> compulsory qn

Qn. To what extent would the replacement of individual neurons by functionally equivalent microprocessors, if feasible, result in any change in the way the brain functions or in what its owner experiences?

Qn. "The most important scientific discovery of the present era will come when someone--or some group--discovers the answer to the following question: How exactly do neurobiological processes in the brain cause consciousness?" (John Searle). Discuss this claim.

me and thong looked at these qns, looked at each other, and we can see the fear in the other person's eyes. we have absolutely no clue in the world how to answer these, even as psychology students. and prof said this yr's paper is along those lines. goshhhh. does anyone understand these?? pls decipher if u do. how to go for the exam in 1 day's time?? how is it that i've attended one semester's worth of lessons but nv encountered these stuff??

i must be really desperate to be blogging bout this at this hour.. 4am!! and yes, i'm really desperate.

somebody help. *silent scream*

special children

i've been trying, for the life of me, to upload pics from thong's bday but there are so many problems with blogger. if i ever upload more than 2 pics at one go, there'll be some error and my draft won't be saved and i won't be able to log into blogger for a few hours. weird problem. it's been like this for months! so many times i've actually typed an entire post/uploaded a load of pics only to hit the publish button, and have the entire thing disappear. (the post on food galore was done up over a few days with the help of two computers).

gosh. anyone has this problem?? perhaps my photo sizes are too big? i'm not sure. but sometimes when i write posts without pics i have the same problem too (but the main problem is still uploading photos). gosh i just hate losing whatever i posted just like that.

anyway the other day when i was on one of those long train rides, i noticed a little girl sitting right opposite me looking at me. it struck me how pretty she looks at her age.. perhaps 8 or 9.. and there's just something in her beautiful eyes that spoke to me. anyway she was smiling dreamily so i smiled at her. there's something different about her, i felt, but couldn't point a finger to it. it was only a little later that i noticed that she's wearing the minds uniform.

i dunno why but my heart broke a little when i realised she's another child with special needs. she looks so angelic, it'll be hard to believe she's having problems. and what truly disturbed me was that she was with her nanny and the nanny's little daughter (presumably), but both of them are playing and ignoring the little girl. it was so evident that the little girl is trying to catch their attention.. either trying to join in their play or smiling at them, but they were not interested at all. and when they finally got down the train, the little girl had to carry the nanny's daughter's schoolbag, on top of her own.

during the train ride the little girl was looking at other pple.. trying to smile at them.. but those strangers would not smile at her and gave her odd looks.. perhaps cos she's from minds or perhaps cos they just felt she's weird. but it's mean isn't it? does it hurt to smile at someone? she have her feelings too, gosh. and i'm sure she appreciates a kind smile too.

i dunno but meeting her that day just reminds me so much bout children with special needs. and it reminds me especially of ethan. and when i told thong bout it i cried again. when can children like these walk out of stereotypical shadows? and it hurts to know that we dunno what's going on in their internal world.. what exactly are they thinking, perceiving? it hurts to know that little kids who are so young and innocent, can't live life like we do, can't experience things that we take for granted. it hurts to know that children like ethan, who looks just like any other child, who's healthy and adorable, is actually suffering from a disorder. it hurts more to know that many pple are not accepting them, even if they say they're not prejudiced. and wat can we do to help them? i'm not exactly sure. but i think a first step is to give these children love, and acceptance. that's the very least we can do, if we can't do anything else.

thong consoled me by saying that perhaps these kids are also happy in a way that's different from us, that we're using our standards of happiness to judge whether they are happy or not, or normal or not. it makes sense to me. and i certainly hope that it's true (that they are indeed happy), though we may have no way of knowing. one thing i do know is that, these kids are subjected to stereotypes, and that they can't be too happy when there are pple around who point fingers at them. and it's the whole point of studies like psychology isn't it? all these endeavours to understand human dynamics, remove stereotypes and prejudice, and improve societal wellbeing.

so here's my appeal to u. if u see children or any individuals who are disadvantaged in a certain way, dun hesitate to give a smile, lend a hand or wateva. or if u can't do that, at the very least, don't do anything. dun stare, dun point. if u have a loved one with such a disorder, u'll know how much it hurts.

my darling's birthday

it's thong's bday today!!! his 4th bday since we've been together. this post shall be specially dedicated to him! hehe.

it's funny how i've always tried to surprise him on his bday, but it's always so hard to, since we're like together almost 24/7 in hall and stuff, seldom out of each other's sight. hehhee eeeek mushy. so the quality's abit compromised. and sometimes, the plans fail miserably.

let me illustrate. hmm, yr 1. we made a huge banner for thong and jin and hung it up somewhere adjacent to thong's room, such that he can see it from his windows. but that was successful cos it was a group effort (can make and hide the banner in friends' rooms etc).

yr 2. i secretly ordered a nice cake to be delivered to hall, wanting to surprise him that night. i was with him in his room that afternoon when the delivery man called to say he has arrived. so i had to cook up some excuse to leave right? i told him i'm going to the hall office to pay my fees. surely, just ten mins away he won't suspect anything?? but wrong. while i was at the lobby collecting the cake i saw thong walking towards my direction (he said he wanted to see how was my fees-paying coming along...?!)! and according to him, i went to hide in the toilet with the cake when i saw him. darn.

yr3. bought him a big adidas bag plus matching shoe bag. i was thinking, hmm where in my room can i hide them such that he'll nv chance upon them? i thought, shoe rack is the best. surely, he won't ever open my shoe rack?? wrong again! who knows, prior to his bday he happened to open my shoe cupboard to keep my shoes. brrrrrr. he has never done that b4. and so, he found his present in the most unexpected way. surprise!! in advance though. sobs. so much for the effort.

yr4. hmm sad to say, this yr i really din have time to plan or organize anything. and we're really spending too much time together with all the studying during exam period to go plan anything on my own (i'm seeing him totally 24/7). but we did have alot of celebrations together. bout 4 i think! but i thought, maybe nice to give him a lil something. so today after my assessment at bat, i went to clementi to buy him a pandan cake (his favourite flavour supposedly, dun ask me why the flavour). dun think very simple k. i had to call my hallmate and get her to open the gate for me (i dun have access), hide the cake in lvl 7 fridge, go back outside the gate again, call thong to pretend i'm still waiting for him to open the gate for me, then pretend to go toilet whilst actually going to prepare the cake, and i had to light up the candles with a lighter!!! hahaha it's the first time i'm using a lighter *shy-faced* managed to light up the damn thing but burnt some flesh in the process. loser. hehhee. but it pays to see that boy's face light up in the end. pheww. mission accomplished.

okie enough bout surprises. in hall u can do such stuff. next time when we grad, i think i have to think of other forms of surprises? heh.

anyway dearie, i hope u had a great bday this yr. i know u did. haha. i know how much it means to have the pple significant in ur life to care so much bout u. u and ur famous five. they're so nice to u eh? haha.

thong and me, we've come a long way. i think love is all bout finding the right one. after all the roundabouts, i'm glad we've found each other. i think for us, we're not such the romantic kinda couple. but we're true companions, i think that matters alot more. we're so comfortable with each other, we're like family. it's no longer u and me, but us. we can do anything and say anything in the world, there won't be any embarrassment or shyness. we've been together for quite awhile, but we're not sick or tired or anything. in fact, we still have so many things to talk about each day, still so many new activities and things to explore and do. each new day is exciting. i dunno why, but i think i've never felt this way with anyone before. i guess it's partly cos we stay in hall together? helps us to bridge any gaps. i've never felt so at ease with anyone at all. and i know that i can always depend on him to be there, to be my source of comfort and happiness, and the whole world can doubt me but he won't (same for me!). it's just the feeling of, u're not afraid of showing each other who u really are, cos we know the other person will just totally accept it and not judge us at all. we can truly be ourselves.

and i think, these little things are really the stuff that matter, at least to me. being able to bare our souls to each other, to be who we truly are and knowing the other person is loving it, to be able to talk about the deepest secrets and issues in our hearts, no pretense, no nothing. we can say anything to each other, and in fact we scold vulgarities at each other alot of times. oops. we wash each other's laundries, cook for each other, i squeeze his blackheads for him, he puts leave-on conditioner on my hair after i shower. heh eek starting to sound really gross.

shan't bore u guys. anyway just wanna say i'm inclined to think i've found the right one and just hope everything turns out fine after we leave hall. bah. love u thong! eeek sounds mushy. yea another thing is we dun usually say sweet things to each other. so weird. hmmz.

greedy bj's grabbers

greeeedy us and our free bj's ice-creams!!

queue was snaking but we took only like 10 mins to get our hands on the stuff. cos they had like ten scoopers?? heee great.

they din offer cherry garcia my fav flavour so i settled for cookie dough and thong went for cream and dunno wat (which is just like cookies n cream). liked his better.

yummy. nothing cheers u up like a good ice-cream on a hot day.

p/s: i cut my hair by the way (no link). 5 inches at least!

on job interviews

so one day some weeks ago i went for an interview, for the post of a probati*n officer. not exactly wat i'm looking for, but it sounded really challenging and no harm just trying out.

and the interview was one rather out-of-the-world experience, def not quite wat i would imagine at least, or in any way like those i'd gone to (which i'd mostly enjoyed). quite funny in a way.. the things that popped out. haha. was interviewed by one big dynamic personality. the chief officer.

anyway so certain things popped out that kinda caught me off-guard.... stuff like (in her exact words), are u attached? what does ur bf think of ur applying for this job? are u sure he supports u? what's a young, nice, pretty (she said it, not me) fresh grad like u doing here? we dun even hire fresh grads right away for this position. (hmmm yeaa ok, so why did the website put 0yrs experience needed..) and she continued.. you'd be eaten up alive (made the gulping expression) here, working with offenders. forget bout applying to prisons, if you're gonna be eaten up alive here, u're gonna be worse off there with the hard-cores.

and then, so you can start work by 1st May i assume (i stated in my application july, but think she hasn't read..)? when i told her my exams end on the 4th and i'm going travelling, can only start in june, july blah blah... her reaction was BIG. alright, i thought i can just try out fresh grad applicants, but ended up all of u came here telling me how u want ur holidays blah blah... ok fine, u go for ur holiday, go for ur exams, when u're back then u give me a call. but that's if u pass the case study test. (errr alright so on top of all these harsh things she's saying now i suddenly realised there's a test, which wasn't mentioned to me in the phone call the previous day).

and so i went for the test. 3 essays on a case study. was feeling rather put down by then... because watever she was saying to me in that 15mins of interview, she wasn't exactly asking me, but more like stating them factually, as if she knew me inside out. hmm, ok to some extent i know i'm too pleasant and soft-spoken to handle offenders, but afterall she doesn't know the other side of me and she was judging me w/o me having even said much, w/o so much as a few yelps from me. within 10 mins i was already brushed off by her, hearing stuff bout how i'm not suited for the job. thus she seemed to be judging from my appearance solely, something which i dislike. if u wanna think i'm a bimbo, seriously wateva, cos u dunno the real me. anyway there wasn't much for me to do in an interview other than being polite, frank and sincere in wateva i say. no room for assertiveness here because she has already clearly stated everything.

anyway back to the test. 3 essays. essays ain't a problem. so i wrote 2 hrs worth of stuff, deciding that what i couldn't prove in the interview, i'd write them down.

oh well. it's really not so much bout the job, cos it's not exactly what i'm looking for. it's more of, disliking how pple judge by appearance and such a short time span, esp in this setting.. but i admit it did set me thinking bout stuff. i do agree to a certain extent that i may not be able to handle offenders. it's a tough job afterall and seriously, how many pple are? i know i'm not that tough a person.. but there are indeed times i am.. times i have another side of me. anyway not sure why i'm pondering so much since i wanna work more with children, not so much with offenders anyway... haha..just a thought that this interview set me thinking i guess...

oooh back to this application. bout one week after that i received a call from one of the officers there, telling me that my interviewer conveyed the message that i should give her a call when i finish my exams and stuff.

and bout one week after that i received another call from another officer telling me that my interviewer offers me a casual basis 6mth job, whereby i could get converted (into not sure what, din manage to ask too much).

which brings me to the current problem. should i or should i not?? i'm so confused. arghhh. i'm not so sure i wanna do probati*n stuff (nv been sure all along), but yet it seems like a challenging and fulfilling job, something in tune with what i'm seeking. one main issue is that it is a casual basis job.. not even a contract. no benefits, no promises (and i'd seen the plight of poor casual workers when i was an intern there). i could see nothing at the end of it if i dun perform. and i'd much rather look for a more permanent job since i've applied to other places as well...

anyway i'm going for BAT's first round on thurs. reasoning test, bring calculator. arghh the sound of it scares me. i'll just try my best anyway. go for each interview as if u want the job badly, they say. haha.

hmm i'm supposed to give an answer by tmr. i wanna consider other jobs at the same time. talk about a big DILEMMA.

of floorball and more

wheeee i've finally gotten to play a proper floorball match with the block peeps!

have always hoped to do that before i graduate... cos if u really think bout it, there's no chance to play stuff like hockey or floorball again when we're all outta hall/school. these stuff r not like soccer whereby u just need to bring a ball, get some peeps n find an empty piece of grass, or erm court somewhere. and i've always had a liking for hockey n floorball... seriously fun stuff... no sports talent in me, i admit, but hey it doesn't mean i can't just play for the fun of it all and whack some balls... and no one's stopping me no matter how lousy i am. heheh.

anyway, my body's suffering from the grueling 3hr straight session, in terms of severe backache (the entire night i was playing the bended hockey style, which is so wrong in floorball, but being a novice i dunno how to switch over yet) n overall bodyache haha. tho it's pretty fun, i must say that playing with a bunch of young, hot-blooded freshies, who r mostly guys, many of whom r in the ivp team, had really taken a toll on my old lazy bones. hehehe.

and i can't believe i scored 2 goals!! hahahhaa for the life of me. but i gotta say, those were really taiko.. tsk tsk. still, i'm happy!! okie anyway, it's not how good the game turned out in terms of scores, playing skills and all that, but really, wat mattered was all the bonding and pure ol' fun and laughter. and we had a great supper after that.

this brought me into a melancholic state. becos, there's so much of hall that i love about.

stuff that in ur life u'll never ever get to experience if not for hall. stuff like pple playing sports n games in the middle of the night, suppering in the whee hours of the night (2am anyone?), pple shouting from block to block at each other, ponding and raiding sessions, worksessions till maybe morning (yes even worksessions!), playing pranks, popping into pple's rooms anytime of the day, bday surprises like decorating a person's room secretly, cooking meals together, playing games/watching movies/soccer in each other's rooms or lounge, n just knowing like almost everyone in hall (yr 1 or 2 days).... it just feels like living in a huge community, a huge home sometimes.

non-hostelites call us crazy. they think we're mad to sacrifice so much time... they say they'll never ever wanna stay in a hall becos they've heard of so many crazy stories bout pple staying up so late at night, having so many obligations, not being able to study. hmm.. but i say, that's becos they've never stayed in a hall before, and thus of cos they may not know wat they're missing out.

yea there r surely times when each of us have felt so busy with so many things going on... there r times when there r politics n disappointments, just like anywhere else. there r times when i felt i couldn't study, but actually i think i've never juggled between play and studies better in my life before, and i dun think i'm compromising my studies in the least bit. and dun tell me any of u regretted any moment of hall. i didnt. joys and sorrows, i think i've experienced alot in 4 years. i'll never cease to believe that it has given me one hell of a ride. good and bad (good alot more la), i think hall's still really vibrant and will always be one of the best memories of schooling years..

dun get me wrong, i'm sure hall's not the only place to have fun and all. i'm merely saying it's a different kind of experience. not more, not less, just different. just things u'd not normally imagine u'd do... hehe :)

oh well. anyway. the 4 years are coming to a close. another chapter of my life. it's all ending before i know it. and in all honesty, i'm not sure if i can let go just yet. heh silly me. i can rem last yr when my friends moved out.. their rooms were all empty and i felt totally lost. they were just like empty shells, no longer with my friends' stuff, the usual familiar things that we've seen for 3 years. yea till now i can rem how each of their rooms look like. and how i wish they're still there in their rooms, instead of their rooms being totally different now, used by new occupants..

haha i think i'm just being the nostalgic self each time the school year closes. just that this time it's a heavier dose cos i'm leaving here, and school for life. going through alot of turmoil yea.

life's crossroads. sigh.

i'll be fine soon :P

food galore

some random pics of nice food over the past few weeks/months that i miss. *slurps*


so thong n i finally ate uncle vincent's roast whole chicken for supper, all by ourselves.


45 mins later... hehe kinda gross. mission accomplished!

the nice baked rice from kimgary hongkong restaurant at vivo. mine's a half cream half minced beef sauce cheese-baked rice with chicken wings. wat a mouthful.


thong ordered pork chop baked rice, pretty good too.


and this is their super uberlicious peanut butter toast (can't rem exact name). it's sooo slurpy la. ultra thick slice of bread, generous peanut butter spread, maple syrup over the top, and the whole thing is fluffy and melts in ur mouth. so cheap also.. $1+ i think.

the very good pastas from modestos. sigh, how i miss going there. but so pricey. top: ravioli (i think). stuffed with some minced seafood paste that's so tasty. bottom: squid ink pasta with seafood. how i love spuid ink. pls recommend me any good squid inks around!

fish & co and as usual, the seafood platter, which in my opinion, is deteriorating or rather, fluctuating from outlet to outlet. it's an affair of random luck whether u get a good one or not.

the dish i wanna rave about is their cheesy fish and chips! nv tasted a fish and chips that's so good. but again, i think this fluctuates sometimes.

i heart crystal jade's porridges, esp this claypot one with seafood - crab, prawns, fish. dun go for the seafood cos there's not alot of it, but the porridge is so sweet with the seafood taste. plus the seafood taste fresh and sweet too.

my staple at crystal jade.. the prawn wrapped in beancurd skin!

the po lo bao i was talking bout some posts ago. nice!

oooh fluffy dan-tarts!

a very good rum and raisins cheesecake from where else but the cheesecake cafe! it's half eaten when i took the pic cos i din plan to take the pic at all... until i took a bite, and it's oh-so-good i just had to advertise it.

and introducing me & thong's very own warm brownie topped with a thick slice of venezia ice-cream and sprinkled with honey stars! haha. go try it. it's damn good. discovered it thru trial and error when we wanted to put some ice-cream with our brownie. the taste complements so much. add honey stars for that bit of crunch. take note: ur brownie must be piping hot, ur venezia must be fresh out of freezer.

prawn masala from al ameen's. go there for good masala dishes!! best is their mutton masala, which was sold out by the time we got there that day though.

mushroom linguine from bakerzinn. full of mushrooms and cream but gets jelat after awhile.

a pretty good beef sandwich with melting cheese and mushrooms. pleasant surprise cos we dun really think restaurant sandwiches are that nice but this one's definitely worth a try for the tender beef steak (which is not dry like in other sandwiches) and juicy toppings. the taste of the bread is very very good too.... and i'm still wondering to this day wat kind of bread they use for this. so good i can eat it on its own (gardenia's slogan, but sadly their bread is a far cry).

fresh mango dessert sprinkled with pomelo from a lil' dessert shop tucked in chinatown. one of the nicest mango dessert around s'pore that i've tasted. comparable to my fav hongkong's xu liu shan mango desserts.

baked pasta with crayfish from pasta cafe some time ago, when my fringe was still cute. out of point haha. but this pasta not bad. though i like their creamy tomato pasta with crayfish more.

as u can see the pics are so random. oh gosh i love food so much! i miss all these dishes and so many more!! do u know i've been super easily hungry recently? thong's so horrified cos i'm gobbling stuff at anytime of the day, more than he does, getting hungry soon after i eat, and even when i'm about to sleep in the wee hours of the night, my stomach will be rumbling and i'll be yearning to eat more. gosh i'm turning into a PIG!

lalala..

i heart my new pointy pumps. yay! glossy but non shiny.
i'm so going back to buy the same thing in heels.

i'm a crazy lil' chick. taking pics of my shoes halfway into my essay. managed to submit it half an hour before the deadline. lol. wheeee

now i'm gonna die for the test tmr morning. but know wat? i dun really care.

boy, i've changed. or maybe i'm just back to my old pre-uni self. yay!

(*thong's busily flipping thru his textbook and giving me a worried look..)

hell week part 4

feeling kinda rotten of late… sigh.

i think i’ve been slacking way too much, and now i’m paying the price.

it doesn’t help that the exams are impending, and i’ve 3 more mid-terms (or are they still considered mid-terms?) to go still.

sunday (tmr) midnight: 30% essay
status: zilch touched

monday 10am: 20% entire syllabus test
status: 4 out of 12 chapters (took up all my time from tues till fri)

wed: 50% entire syllabus test
status: zilch touched

i’m screwed. i’ve been goin out so much for the past few weeks… basically after the last series of mid-terms i kinda thought i could slack and party forever, and proceeded to do just that. if i’d been consistent in my work i think i could still afford that… but thing is i’m never one who catches up with work and now i’m reading everything for the first time.. tough luck…

i dunno why but this sem i’m finding it pretty hard to breathe… i seem to be forever going out… friends, family, bf, relatives.. there’re just too many pple to catch up with… too many social activities.. it’s neverending. i seem to be forever busy with something.. planning grad trip, finding jobs (err actually not really… unless u consider clicking on the mcys website once in awhile and sending out 3 resumes to date.. i’m really rotting away when it comes to job hunting), going for interviews (actually only 1.. and i’ve yet to blog bout the v interesting experience.. rejected on the spot actually, but more on that later.. soon, soon!), too much shopping to do, too many things to blog bout, too many things i wanna do, rushing to and fro home, just so as to squeeze in some time with mum, all these while juggling the heavy workload in school…

there’re just too many things on my agenda. i think i’m trying to get the best out of life, trying to have some of everything. but arguably i think i’m living life much happier than last sem, when i still couldn’t let go of the cap thingy, and everything was just so stressful. i’m not sure if it’s the busy-ness that makes me forget everything.. but either way i think i’m happy now. Lest this post sounds like im feeling blue, i’m actually only blue to the extent that i feel i’m playing too much till i’m totally ignoring my schoolwork… nv been like this since jc days.. shite wat’s happening to me? haha. even mum noticed, and mum’s staying faraway.

Oh well, now we know the last sem shld nv be left for pulling up caps. haha.. no surprise.. it’s the big transition from school to the rest of life. so many preparations to do… so much emotional stuff boiling.. hehe. graduation blues. the kind where u have anticipation, yet trepidation at what’s to come.

anyway.. i’m really gonna settle down to do some serious studying for the next few weeks.. in fact exams r dawning in bout 2 plus weeks? once midterms are finally over I basically have only finger-countable days for studying exams. and after exams it’s gonna be a mad rush to move outta hall/prepare for the grad trip within 3 days (and i’m still considering midsummer night’s dream on the day after my exam…)! gonna be so up to my neck from now on… no social obligations for me. pls dun ask me out anymore till exams r over k.. dun be bad influences ya’ll. i’ll just turn down anyone. hee.. really la.. hope to get understanding on this. love ya guys (or babes, actually) still. we will catch up, i’ll be sure of that!

Ooh anyway, pls dun eat C*nadian 241 pizzas anymore (unless u’re using them as laxatives). i just had nothing short of an earth splattering diarrhoea within half an hour of downing that. i’m sure i can attribute it to the pizzas. hmphhh.

Pop! Goes my heart

rarrr!! i have so many problems with posting youtube vids on my blogger! can't seem to post the vid and write words at the same time w/o facing a host of problems... so i'm gonna separate my post and my vid.... brrrr

anyway... u gotta check out this funny pop! goes my heart vid which is the opening mtv for the show.. think hugh grant and his signature butt twist (think love actually)!! i like!! cheesy and totally 80's! hahaa... this song really got me going up and jumping.. think thong can no longer tolerate me and my pop! goes my heart! all day long...

I know i'm kinda lag to be blogging bout music & lyrics only now... but i've just watched it on mon with the smelly worm (first time 2 of us catching a show!) so it's worth bloggin about.haha. anyway, this movie totally rocks! damn funny, romantic with nice songs that stick in ur head forever... i love.

okie.. go, go... go have a good laugh at this cheesy vid!

and check out the other song i posted from music & lyrics too.

Haley Bennett as Cora Corman - Way Back Into Love

listen to this for a sweet heartwarming song... the tune's been stuck in my head for days...

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

monster pics

we spent sat night at jin's house and it turned out to be a night of hilarious photo-taking on his macbook, courtesy of the cool camera function. lol.... the pics shall speak for themselves. dig them!

very normal-looking bunch (i hope) before extreme deformity...

bunch of retard lookalikes.....

and this is not the worst!


yeaa.. my twin sister. no prizes for guessing who's cupping my face and erm, boobs (are there any?)

hehe.. no effort needed to look ugly! fun fun fun!

during our uno game... the 3 babes won simultaneously, while the guys were left to battle it out.. then..

lis (out of nowhere): neh neh poks...

me: then they're the kuku birds.

thong: how come the neh neh poks won in order of size, from smallest to biggest?? (lis, me then yuan won)

lis: hmphhh.

we: then the guy that wins first have the smallest kuku!

and guess who won first??? hehe. the one who shot himself in the mouth la. stupid thong. and jin won the biggest kuku prize. lol....

diaoo.. we sound really boliao. but was so hilarious at that time.

kk..back to studying. shite... i still have so many things to blog about!