just a quick short post while waiting for bc launch at 8pm! waiting for my mum to buy me a croissant for dinner. wish i can have popeye's mashed potato tooo.

reached home at 7pm today, super early!! suddenly felt abit lost and dunno what to do with my time. it's not 8pm yet and i've already bathed! i'm gonna spend the night watching 24 again... hoping to finish up season 1 before the weekend so that we can start on season 2 this weekend, but doubt i'll be able to make it.. still 11 episodes to go! i'm so in love with jack bauer..

attended my junior batch of colleagues' promotion ceremony earlier on. happy for them :) can't help but feel that they're such a nice fun-loving bunch of people, and how lucky i am to have such wonderful people at work. well, most of them anyway. they're the only ones i feel so safe with, we can talk and bitch about anything at work, they're the ones i laugh and cry with. i would miss them when i start losing some of them at the end of this year, and eventually if i ever leave the place.

bc's gonna launch!! gotta prepare my fingers...

another miserable night which ended with a summon.

is it really love if you only love the good side of a person but not the bad side?

i only have about 3 hours to myself each day. this includes meal time and bathing time. how can we spend 80% of our waking time at work? It's really ridiculous to me. there's no work-life balance at all and i'm really looking forward to the weekend.... i'd do anything to stay there forever.

i'm swamped and buried in work each day in the office. it's never enough. i can put in 120% each day and still, i can never cover all areas. so far, there's only one boss who seems to realise the amount of work i'm given, and tried to shield me from other work coming my way. i only have one small advocate and it's not enough. others are still swarming me with stuff. and they expect high quality returns. they think i'm a rubber band and i can be stretched and pulled, thin. i'll probably just snap one day. i really can't cover all areas anymore and i can't cope, but can only scream silently.

i really want to go home at 6pm. i really want to have time to see the dentist, go for medical checkups, go exercise in the evenings, have decent dinners instead of ta-pao meals.

disgusted with certain people at the workplace, disappointed with certain others. i just firmly believe that true colours show one day, there's no point hiding. it's just so fake and plastic and i can see through it all. disappointed in those whose friendship is really valuable to me, but yet in the end are won over to the dark side. why are some people jealous of the true friends i have, and try to snatch them for themselves? i'm perplexed. this is a crazy world.

haven't been home on a friday night in the longest time.

this week it feels good to be home early as it was a rather hell week. went through 3 days of discussions with groups and groups of school principals (80+ of them!) and i must say, principals are a darn difficult bunch of pple to handle. i mean it when i say they are one of the rudest, most condescending, unfocused and irritating people around. i can't believe i survived three rounds of being a facilitator to guide them through a "thinking process". i just wanna puke blood at the end of it.

of cos, there are nice ones. after 2.5 years in the industry interacting with so many of them, i have my favourites. and believe me, these ones fall in the same category: motherly, late middle to elder aged, non-chinese. these are few and rare gems, and i totally respect them.

Principals in this era are a totally different breed altogether from the time we were in school. Generally, other than the aforementioned category, the rest can be classified as follows...

1. The young and hip

Ps are getting younger by the day. Seriously. With the bunch of scholars becoming Ps in their early 30s, we see the trend. I've been spotting many young female ones, with perfectly manicured nails and designer bags and shoes, hip trendy hairstyles, fully accessorized. I'm still not so sure of their substance though... Still wondering if they're here for the job or for the money to finance their lifestyles.

2. The minority men

In this female dominated industry, only a handful are men. Most of them are mild, generally nicer but also lack the drive. Their presence are not felt so strongly. But they're definitely the more polite, less condescending and calculating bunch.

3. The old-school

The traditional Ps from our era. Scream old-school, rigid, systematic, think within the box. Discipline and results are their top priority. But they are experienced and are familiar with policies. Abit easier and safer to work with, predictable.

4. The dynamic and driven

The best lot. The ones who'd effect change. Strict and no nonsense, but at least they get things done. Some are quite personable and professional at the same time, others are just really scary but you know they mean business. A sub-type of them are really inspirational and clearly their priority is with the kids.

5. The eccentric and totally unprofessional

The kind who tends to dress up in flowery wear, weird colourful make-up and flamboyant hairdos. Usually the most unconstructively critical and complainey. Very loud, likes to attract attention, talks the most and negatively influences others' thinking.

*****

I must be damn free to blog about Ps. Crazy!!! It's friday and i'm offff work. i need to de-role and stop analyzing people from schools. The branch is abit too much into this kinda thing nowadays and i'm so in sync with it already.

randomly, koi has opened in bishan!!! yayyyyy!

i feel so much like eating seletar airport spicy wings but i dun want the chilli to burn my poor little injured finger... randomly, my colleagues say guys must wash their hands after they eat seletar spicy wings before going toilet. hmm.

i'm gg to macs with mummy for breakfast tmr. breakfast till 12noon. yay!

looking forward to another weekend of watching dvd w u and possibly throwing in a dinner here and a movie there. gg for a jog at ecp again but i'm so afraid my blisters would hurt.

just now we saw a few monks eating chicken at arnold's. we were like ??!!?!? the last i heard, monks are vegetarians.

my colleagues say my finger looks gross and mutated, and i threatened to poke them in the face with it =( here's a picture of how it looks:

i think it's not that bad la. quite cute what.

There are so many many things i wanna do...

1) do something to my hair. get a haircut. my ends are so dry that someone took scissors and tried to cut it cos she couldn't stand the sight.

2) go for facial. my complexion is at its newest low.

3) watch 3D!! i wanna watch how to train your dragon and clash of the titans. why can't i ever find time for movies?

tonight's a good chance to catch up reading.. haven't been with a novel for lightyears now so i'm gonna snuggle up to a book in bed. goodnight!

gloomy

it's such a "painful" day for me...

i wore my new nude pink heels to work. was sooo happy with this buy cos i've been looking for this shade. but, the straps cut the back of my heels and gave me huge blisters!! by the time i reached the office, the straps had rubbed my blisters open and i was in hell pain. luckily i had a spare pair of heels in the office to change to!! i hate shoes which cut the back of my heels... but sadly, one third of my shoes are like that....

then, this afternoon in the office, i accidentally hit my half-cracked forefinger nail, and the top half tore and ripped from my flesh. 10 x ouch. started bleeding and all and i had to carefully clip away the nail. had to be super careful when i use my hands (which is basically for everything!!). i knocked my poor forefinger when i was in the toilet and the blood was flowing out again..... sighh.... i officially can't use my forefinger for anything, not even typing!!

it was a helluva torture to bathe. i had to put a plaster and wear a disposable glove on my right hand and be careful not to spill any water on it or it'd be super ouch. then i forgot about the blisters on my feet. so when the water touched them, i felt a sharp, excruciating pain immediately... had to put my left leg (the worse blister) up on the toilet seat to bathe after that. so i basically bathed with my left hand which is a really challenging task!

if i'd known, i shouldn't have bathed. hahaaa kidding!! not when the weather was sooo hot today and i sweated like mad during lunch. but never knew that one right forefinger could inconvenience me so much! just realised our hands are really important and we use them for everything. everything!!

went for a jog at ECP yesterday with kai and his dog. it's nice to run by the sea and it's nice to jog with figo as i felt like we could pace each other. just had to be careful when he starts barking at old ladies... it's highly embarrassing and scary.

sigh my mood is slightly below average at this moment. hate the throb on my finger and i dread going to work to 4 meetings tomorrow. can't visit a special school tmr morning with my other colleagues cos i have an "important" meeting to attend. sianz. 10 x sianz.