this week i can finally catch a breather cos it's nie week! hoping not to set foot in the office at all. so so looking forward to good friday!

last night was a terrible moment for me. was trying to upload my assignment, which came up to 62mb!! needless to say, it exceeded the system's capacity and i had to ask for help. my colleague suggested that i convert it into pdf. so i went to dl the program. and realised it's incompatible with mac (just like all other things i've tried to dl online..). so she asked me to send her my file and she'd convert it. but my file was too big to be sent through email, or msn. so she asked me to send it through yousendit. and guess what? i couldn't open yousendit webpage no matter how i tried, though i could go into any other website!! luck was just not with me. was really sooo frustrated i was gonna cry.

had to press my emergency button (kai response system) and he came over with the pdf converter to help me convert. he managed to convert it but some images could not be seen. had to paste again which took a few years. and voila when it's finally done, i uploaded onto the system and there was some stupid processing error and the document just refused to load!! think it took like an hour for it to upload by 1am.

the whole process took me 5 hours and i was close to tears!! but so thankful that rescue came and i'm so relieved to have submitted my stupid 41 page assignment on time.

phewww.

i hate mac.

i seriously dunno why i bought it. i mean, yeah i love many things about it. like the nice interface, images and certain functions. but i can't, for the life of me, do sooo many things like dl programs, play or stream videos online, and like 90% of things are incompatible with mac!!! i can only access safari. i dunno how to use many mac programs like iphoto, itunes, documents and stuff. my hard disk is not even compatible with it and i dunno how to program it!! so i still have not transferred my stuff over. arghhh it's killing me!!

i feel stooopid. :(((

been spending bombs at supermarkets buying sooo much food. my fav wheatables (new biscuit craze), yoghurt, milk, raisins and nuts, fruits like oranges, avocado, grapes. i spent $80 in 2 trips!! pple who dunno me will think i'm health crazed but i spend half my life eating junk actually. can't wait for dinner tmr and also can't wait to bring mummy to my fav rider's cafe!

bought a rose gold ring and i love it to bits. i'm so into gold and rose gold stuff recently. can't wait to collect it!

okay i'm going to start my health regime of fruits and nuts right now. now.

i went to the white rabbit twice and haven't blogged about it!!

pics refuse to load. but the gist is that i heart heart the white rabbit mac and cheese with the goody truffle sauce!! but lissie, yes a tad overpriced. i like the food though! oh, and go there on weekday evenings cos weekend just feels like a noisy dining hall filled with white people (ang mohs).

life's good and i'm taking a step back in everything. in work, i've learnt to let things go a little bit and learnt not to take control of everything. in a senior colleague's words, i'm always too ready and willing to take on everything and always look as though i can take anything on, thus the arrows will never ever stop and my workload will always be higher than everyone else's. he also thinks my expectations of myself are way too high and i need to relax on myself a little.

all very true and valid points which i'm fully aware of. the virgoan perfectionist streak in me whereby i'm irked with imperfection in the tasks i handle. believe it or not, it kills me and irritates me thoroughly if i do something in a haphazard manner without careful thought and planning. but anyhows.. now i'm slowly taking a step back and it feels better. so my assignment's due on friday and still no sweat =) i wanna knock off at 6pm and get my life back!!!

last night i had cramps so i went to bed early at 10pm. slept for 9hours until 7am and i woke up with clear translucent skin which looked so fresh!!! gosh. i swear that quality sleep is the best beauty treatment around. and so... i'm gonna turn in early, like now. which is already an hour late. shite. goodnight!!

left the office at 7.30pm and missed the stupid bus yet again. the only thing i had hanging in my head was, just let this wed be over soon, please please please.

so dreading the work review i'm gonna have with nastiest prata at 8.30am, followed by rushing to a school in tampines to conduct some workshop at 10.30am, of which i have to be assessed by my supervisor for my presentation skills and i have to write a 3000 word report on the whole process of the workshop to submit for an assignment due in 2 weeks, followed by rushing back to office for a dreadful meeting at 3pm with team leader to discuss my research study which is really gg haywire now!!

so, please, let this Wed be over sooooon.

at least my colleagues are bringing me to white rabbit for dinner on Wed. i've been waiting to go there my whole life.

nowadays sleep=6 hrs, work = 12 hrs, gastric=paramount, life satisfaction= close to 0

i dunno how long more i can have faith, trust, confidence in the whole thing. I'm always asked to tolerate, be patient, be understanding, whilst u can just do whatever u like?? where's the fairness... where's the effort and commitment in everything. i dunno, i'm just so super low mo now. i think there's still alot of unresolved issues within me and i dunno how long i can last. sometimes i feel like i'm a third party between u and ur friends. why do i feel this way? is something wrong? is something u're doing making me feel this way? am i the only one who need to reflect??

i just want to hide and retreat somewhere. away from work and everything i dread. currently yearning to go http://www.akaresorts.com and i'm drooling at it everyday. working hard towards going there, perhaps one day in june? but yet when i think about what lies ahead, it feels so bleak and i dunno whether i can get to go with anyone at all.

i miss my babies and playing with evan... he's oh so sweet and cute.

It's another fruitful day. Had a good work day outta the office learning some really interesting stuff and had a good dinner with colleagues at eM, gossiping and talking silly stuff and just, laughing our heads off. Sometimes I dunno what my workplace would be like without this bunch of peeps who keep me sane.

Grabbed this photo from someone's fb. Can't rem who though (sorry, if you're reading this. nice pic!). The northern lights just make me think of faraway dreamy places. Somewhere with dreams and hopes abundant, of magical enchantment. Life just looks so promising when you look into this starry sky. This is where I wanna be, at least once in a lifetime. I would trudge through anything, just to get there.

Goodnights, world.